"This floor is hard. I'm thirsty. Jesus, I'm so bored I could scream. Are you going to stare at those things all day?"
There was no answer from the floor, where Wufei sat in resolute
silence. Aiming the stolen minicorder's projector at the metal
wall, he continued to review the specs for their rebuilt gundams.
He was in no mood for yet more noise from the irrepressible
American. It had been three days since Barton had come with the
Oz guards to lead Yuy off to another dogfight, and in those three
days Wufei had become painfully familiar with the consequences of
Maxwell's boredom.
"You're into books, right? Tell me a story?" Duo wheedled.
"No."
"C'mon, please?"
There was an edge of hysteria in his voice--the confinement really
seemed to be getting to him. Wufei relented a little, though
reluctantly.
"A story about what?"
"I don't care. The man in the moon. Anything!"
"It's a rabbit," Wufei said absently.
"What?"
The Shenlong pilot continued flicking through the minicorder's
images, but answered. "I said, it's not a man in the moon, it's
a rabbit. The moonhare."
"Says who?"
"Five billion Chinese, Maxwell."
"This I've got to hear. How did a rabbit get on the moon?"
"Will you be quiet and sit down if I tell you the story?"
He flopped down obediently, legs crossed, eyes expectant. "See?
All set. Hit it, Wu."
"That is not my name."
An elaborate sigh. "Fine, fine. Chang Wufei, please proceed."
"Well. Once there was a hero named Yi, who made a name for
himself as an archer before wanting to become emperor. He built
a palace for a powerful goddess, the Western Motherqueen--"
"You have got to be kidding. She couldn't come up with a better
name than that?"
"Not a good goddess to mock, Maxwell--she's fierce. And it's not
her fault her name doesn't translate well."
"Okay, okay."
"The goddess liked the palace so much that she rewarded Yi with a
great gift: a pill that would make him immortal. But before he
could take it, he had to undergo a year of meditations and
exercises to acclimate his body and spirit to the change. Yi's
wife, Heng O, was very worried--she feared immortality would warp
him, making him proud and cruel. One day, though he had hidden the
pill very well, she found it. Yi came into the room suddenly, and
before she could collect herself, Heng O had swallowed the pill
herself. And she was not sorry, because now she wouldn't have to
watch her husband change into something he had never really wanted
to be. But her body was not ready for the magic, and suddenly she
found herself rising into the air. Higher and higher, beyond Yi's
reaching hands."
Wufei's eyes were very distant, and very sad.
"Well? The rabbit?"
"I'm getting to that part. Heng O kept rising until she reached the
moon, where she fell to the ground. The pill was still burning in
her throat, and she tried to cough it up. But only the cover would
come up, and when she spat it out onto the moon dust, it turned into
a white jade hare. Anyway, that's what we see, when we look at the
moon. A rabbit with a mortar and pestle."
"What's the pestle for?"
Wufei regarded Duo with some suspicion; since when did Maxwell
hold still for detailed explanations of anything that didn't involve
high-powered explosives? He was actually managing to look
interested, which had to be a testament to his extreme boredom.
Somewhat cautiously, Wufei continued. "The mortar and pestle can
represent different things. Some versions of the story say that the
rabbit uses them to grind ink for Heng O, now that she's the Moon
Lady. But he also measures time with his grinding. And the moonhare
himself can mean different things, too. In some of the stories, the
rabbit is the one element of yang in the yin of the moon palace--the
one light in the darkness, just as there is a three-legged crow in
the palace of the sun. It's a matter of balance. Sun and moon,
taiyang and yueliang."
"What did you call it?"
"Yueliang."
"Yoo-ay-lee-ang?"
"Almost. Listen to the tones. Yueliang."
"Yueliang. And that's 'moon'?"
"Moon."
"What's rabbit?"
"Tu."
"Yueliang tu?"
"Close enough." He returned Duo's grin with one of his own rare
smiles. It was surprising that the American was even trying--but
then, Maxwell had picked up Japanese quickly enough, once he decided
he needed to take Yuy on in his own language. Maybe he wasn't
all noise, after all--not quite, anyway.
"So this moon lady, she still lives there, all alone with the big
white rabbit?"
"In some stories, yes. In some of them, she has seven moon-maidens
to attend her. And in other ones, Yi himself becomes the sun--the
incarnation of yang--and is able to visit her every month."
"Guess he became immortal after all."
"We all have a duty to fate, Maxwell." That sadness, again.
"But he gets conjugal visits, huh?"
"You could call it that, I suppose. And the other goddesses visit
her, too, I expect."
"There are more?"
"Every river, every town has its deity, Maxwell. But there are some
major ones: the Jade Emperor, who rules over heaven and earth. The
Western Motherqueen, who gave Yi the pill in the first place.
Nataku, who is Justice. And Guanyin, of course."
"What does she do?"
"Guanyin is the Goddess of Mercy. Mothers have shrines to her,
because she looks after children. And she hears petitions from
mortals."
"Oh, yeah, we have one of those. Like an intercessor--someone
to pray to when you're in trouble?" Duo's hand went almost
unconsciously to the chain around his neck. "But ours is named
Mary."
Mary. Meiran. Could justice and mercy ever be the same? The
phonetic coincidence, like the whole conversation, stayed with him
even as they found slightly more bearable positions on the metal
floor and tried to sleep.
When they awoke again to the cell's dull light, it took a moment to
realize what had changed in the room: the background hiss of the
ventilators had stopped. Their air had been cut off. Not good.
They waited for a long moment in silence, but the emergency systems
didn't power up. Calmly, Wufei estimated the volume of the room,
the rate at which the two of them were using air. They would not
have long, but it would be at least an hour before oxygen
deprivation rendered them unconscious. Whose decision was this,
he wondered. Not a hero's way of dispatching the enemy, but he had
long since stopped expecting heroism from Oz.
His calculations were interrupted by the sound of Maxwell's
increasingly erratic breathing. He had moved well away from the
wall, as if there were more air in the middle of the room, and was
looking up fixedly as if afraid the ceiling was about to start
closing in.
"They turned off the _air_? Great. Just great. And the hamsters
fall over in their cage. There go our little legs, up in the air."
"Ni hushuo, Maxwell. You're overreacting, as usual. There is air,
and there will be for some time. I suggest you calm down, if you
want to live longer."
He wasn't listening, eyes huge with panic. "I don't want to die
like this. Not in a box."
Still wildly scanning the room, he wasn't watching the floor under
his pacing feet--and then he missed one of the metal steps and fell,
coming down hard on both knees. His fingers reached for his collar,
as if pulling at it would do anything to open his constricting throat.
With an exasperated sound--any activity was a waste of air--Wufei
slid over the floor to him. "This is irresponsible; your
histrionics are using up valuable air. What kind of training did
you have, anyway? Panic is not a productive response to this
situation."
Duo laughed hysterically, "Guess not. But then, you never spent
much time hiding in a crawlspace as a kid, did you? Dirt to the
left of you, dirt to the right of you, hoping Oz's boys would
leave before you all suffocated--that's not productive of much,
either."
"Come on, Maxwell, you spend half your time in the cockpit of a
gundam, and it's much smaller than this room."
"Not the same. Like wearing a suit, n-not like being in a box.
Besides, there's _air_ in Deathscythe. . . ." He trailed off in
a near-sob, choking on the words.
Wufei watched in alarm as Duo slid into a full-blown panic attack,
gasping for air. Of course. This was every claustrophobic's worst
nightmare. And this was his--friend? His friend. He had
to do something.
A possible solution finally occurred to him--if the American had
ever needed an intercessor, it was now. He caught at the cross
where it swung against Duo's dark tunic. "Look. Maxwell, look.
Focus. Say the prayer. Come on. What are the words?"
"H-hail Mary, full of grace...blessed art thou...."
His voice was shaky, but the rhythm of the words was forcing him
to stop hyperventilating. Unfortunately, it wasn't a very long
prayer. "...pray for us now, and at the hour of our death. Oh,
God, I don't want to die like this."
"Stay with me, Maxwell." The manacles greatly hampered his
movements, but Wufei took Duo's imprisoned hands and laid them on
his own chest. "Feel me breathe. Now, you try. Slowly. Say
it again, one word at a time."
The pale hands were clammy against his chest, shaking
uncontrollably, but Duo tried. Head down, he murmured the words
over and over, and gradually his breathing slowed to match the
motion under his hands.
Almost out of time, now. They had been sitting like this,
forehead to forehead, for what seemed like hours; and then Duo
made a small sound, like a sigh, and swayed on his knees.
Wufei shifted to look closely into his face; the wide hyacinth
eyes seemed to be trying to ask him something. Then they slid
shut, and Duo slumped forward against him. As best he could,
Wufei gathered the other pilot up into his lap, and sat almost
as if rocking him to sleep. This was a positive development, he
reminded himself, compulsively smoothing the already-smooth braid.
Unconscious, his body would make the best use of the available
oxygen. Wufei knew this, but--
He looked down, stupidly, at the drops of moisture on the back of
his hand--he hadn't realized he was crying. As the lights in the
cell seemed to dim even further, his mind hesitantly framed words
that had once been familiar:
<Blessed Guanyin, Compassionate Lady, Mother of Mercy, who
watches over children far from home. This one is the light in our
darkness--help him breathe. Let there be enough air. And let him
still be breathing when something happens to get us out of this.
Qing ni, Guanyin.>
Sitting back against the wall, he closed his own eyes and began
the meditations that would slow his vital functions to an absolute
crawl. And he waited, against all hope, for the hiss of returning
air.