I started crossdressing as most people have, by experimenting with my mother's clothes.  When I was in second grade I discovered that I really liked the soft, satiny feel of her panties against my skin.  But this more lust than it was a desire to be a woman.

I continued to experiment with her underwear and by the time I was in junior high school and old enough to be left home alone, I began searching through old boxes looking for clothes.  I started trying on her old dresses, blouses, bathing suits, whatever I could find.  This is also around the time that I first tried putting on makeup.

When I got to high school I really toned down my dressing.  I felt ashamed and dirty by it, I felt that there was something wrong with me; I knew from research that this wasn't true, but it didn't stop me from feeling this way.  But once every few months I just couldn't stop myself and I would dress up and satisfy my desire to be a woman for a few more months.

It has only been in the last year or so that I've come to really accept what I am.  I started looking up TV sites on the web and that was when I realized just how many people are into crossdressing.  I always knew that there were other people like me, but I didn't realize to what extent.

This past summer ('98) I went on my first shopping trip and purchased a few things.  Not long after that, I took on my nomme de femme.  My first shopping trip was nerve wracking, but I've since found that I love it; I love to hang out in the women's department for a long period of time, browsing through the racks, while the ladies try to figure out what I'm doing there.

I have yet to come out to anyone mostly because I don't know anyone who I think would be accepting; but I'm still sounding out a few people.  Of course I did come out to all of you, which really helps.  I would really like to meet some other transgendered people around here, as I tend to get a little lonely dressing for myself.

So, thank you for reading this and enjoy your visit ,

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